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Sanine · Chapter

XXXVII explained

Yourii waits for Sina on a hillside at dusk, overwhelmed by happiness and desire.

What happens

Yourii waits for Sina on a hillside at dusk, overwhelmed by happiness and desire. When she arrives, he carries her down to a dark grassy slope, but his passion falters as he questions his actions. He stops, apologizes, and they part awkwardly, though Sina kisses him tenderly before leaving. Yourii feels disgust, shame, and despair, doubting his own capacity to live.

Themes in this chapter

  • Sexual Freedom and Hypocrisy

    Yourii's internal conflict between desire and moral restraint, and his disgust at acting 'like an animal,' highlights the tension between natural impulses and societal hypocrisy.

  • Nihilism and the Meaning of Life

    Yourii's despairing question 'After all, am I really capable of living?' reflects a crisis of meaning and self-worth.

Characters to notice

  • Yourii Sanine

    Waits for Sina in ecstasy, then struggles with his own passion and stops, feeling disgust and despair afterward.

  • Sina Karsavina

    Arrives breathless, submits to Yourii's caresses, then shows motherly tenderness and kisses him passionately before leaving.

Key passages

  • She will come back again, directly.

    He reassured himself that she would return soon.

    Yourii's anxious anticipation while waiting for Sina.

  • What am I doing?

    He suddenly questioned his own actions.

    Yourii's moment of self-awareness and doubt during the encounter.

  • After all, am I really capable of living?

    He wondered if he had any real ability to live meaningfully.

    Yourii's despairing self-reflection at the end of the chapter.